Trigger warning: He’s still watching.
The boy I once was?
Oh, he was a goddamn legend.
He believed cereal could fix anything,
that Band-Aids healed betrayal,
and that adults actually knew what they were doing.
(Adorable, right?)
He thought love meant forever.
Thought saying sorry meant something.
Thought being “good” earned you safety.
Spoiler:
It didn’t.
It doesn’t.
He used to stare out windows and dream in color.
Now I scroll through screens and call that vision.
He built forts to keep the world out.
Now I build walls and call it “boundaries.”
He cried when people yelled.
Now I flinch when someone cares.
And somewhere between “be yourself” and “grow up,”
he got stuffed into a box labeled “too much.”
Too loud. Too sensitive. Too emotional. Too intense.
So I dulled him down into a version of myself
that fit other people’s expectations.
Congrats, world.
You win.
He’s quieter now.
Until 2AM – when he rips through my chest
asking why I let him disappear.
And I don’t have an answer.
Just more silence.
But hey –
at least I’m employed, right?
At least I pay my taxes, don’t cry in public,
and answer “I’m good” like it’s a sacred chant.
The boy I once was would call bullshit on all of it.
He’d stand on the table and yell,
“This is the life you chose?”
And I’d look him in the eye
and whisper –
No.
But it’s the life I settled for.
Not anymore.
He’s back.
With messy hair, scraped knees, and a thousand unspoken questions.
He’s not here for revenge.
He’s here for rescue.
And I’m done leaving him behind.
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